I’m a little late to the party again this week, and trying to catch up with the assignments for Blogging 101. First up is Monday’s assignment to take the daily prompt and make it personal, publishing a post as a result. Since the assignment came from Monday I’ll use Monday’s prompt.
Tell us about the last experience you had that left you feeling fresh, energized, and rejuvenated. What was it that had such a positive effect on you?
At first glance this looks like a fairly easy one to interpret. It probably should be. But when you’re struggling with depression then experiences that leave you feeling fresh, energized and rejuvenated can be few and far between. That should mean that these moments should stand out though, no? Unfortunately the low points in between tend to cloud things.
What you actually tend to notice more are the smaller things. The days where you don’t have to psyche yourself up first in order to get out of bed. Or take a shower. Or leave the house. These things that many take for granted are the experiences I often pick up on as evidence I’m feeling fresh and energized and rejuvenated. As evidence that I might actually have a good day, when really all I’m having is a day.
That’s not to say that the big upswings aren’t appreciated. Or important. I had one this weekend. A trip to watch the ice hockey team I support. Before this game I hadn’t been able to get along to one in over a year. A saw friends I hadn’t spoken to in the same time, and some I see more often but still far too infrequently.
And the team won. Convincingly.
It was a very good day. An actual very good day and not just one masquerading as good, in comparison to the rest. It was great. I have no idea when the crash is coming. Part of my personality means I tend to focus on the worry about that and less on the good things as they’re happening. It’s something I need to work on and get better at. And I’m trying. I’m still trying to revel in the good of the hockey trip, when not too long ago I’d be entirely thinking about the crash to come.
It’s some kind of progress.